happy 2021 I’ve officially ruined things with my now ex best friend ✌
“Have you ever killed something good for you just to be certain that you’re the reason you can no longer have it?”— Larissa Pham, from “Abject Permanence,” published in Unruly Bodies
the entire produce department and one of my immediate coworkers are out for covid, the governer of my state is bypassing vaccines for retail workers in favor of children and teachers so they can “go back into schools as soon as possible”, I’m being forced into a job I don’t want and have literally no training for, and after nine years I now don’t have a best friend anymore so y'know. merry fucking christmas I guess I’m gonna be alone forever now ✌
feels really fucking shitty when the only person that would’ve made you feel better is the reason you feel so awful in the first place
I’m sorry if this is an unsolicited opinion, but I think you’re an awesome person! And as someone also currently rocking the single life and has for a long time, I know that it sucks really bad sometimes to feel like you’re always going to be alone. It really helps to look for the non romantic love in other folks around you. Don’t let being single determine your worth. Hope that isn’t too preachy. Just want you to know some random person cares and understands.
AnonymousI don’t really know what to say. I’ve spent a very very long time feeling like I don’t really matter. It seems like a part of me that can’t change. I don’t know. I have a few friends but it’s hard to feel like my being here has made any significant difference in anyone’s life. I’ll be happy for a moment and then realize “oh right, I’m awful” and we’ll be right back to that good old untreated depression life. Hard to be happy when it feels like everyone is only pretending to like you and would leave at a moments notice.
But I appreciate that you cared enough to send this. Thank you.